story of an african son

Four a.m breaks wondering when it became morning I made you my dominance for a reason Your body my arena Secrets that we create for lovers on the run Story that we can't tell, even your husband don't need to know Only morning calls and late night devours Best times made at bedtime Do what you do to my body and let me feel fine Young simple woman, flower to a young soul I can show you love as I kiss your inner thighs though Wishing I could kiss you in the morning Only morning calls and late night devours You got that something that I haven't seen before That crazy feeling that always makes me sexual My new year's resolution, my one time plan No need to change the status It's just a story of lovers on The run

In the spirit of giving I offer all I can give Don't know if I was good enough for santa to visit this year My Christmas list was kept simple I did want much but that would be enough I claim self reliance and maintain hope for a better coming year I picture us next to a beautiful tree Holding your hand for free All am trying to say is all I really want for Christmas is you I swore never to leave you as we stood under the Christmas lights Chilly breezes bringing our bodies closer Christmas songs singing in the background I wish I could hold this forever Maybe for once not pretend it's you am with All am trying to say is all I really want for Christmas is you Write me a love song and wrap it in ribbons Put it on my bed side with a smiley face kiss me on my neck and just stay Because all I really want for Christmas is you

Problem kid was all they could talk about The one percenter of the lot Young misunderstood soul Lost and confused goals The only ones who gave time intended to steal time Young with a gun Young with some drugs Young and dead Hello world it's brand new day Two souls gone and all we blame is the state Screaming for answer to questions you never asked Where were you when he needed you Claiming he didn't need the talks and hours of remorse Somebody once told me you know your purpose when you learn who you are So am working to a day with less death Of people talking responsibility To this breaking plan One time for my young brothers trying to find their way in this world with no role models

Pulpit filled with evil Congregation of liers and sinners An hour and a half with a growing entrepreneur Sunday becoming the new Monday Lock up your humanity and open them pockets It's harvest time and you all seem right for the picking Am sure your child can go another day without food Our pastor has him in his range rover fueled prayers I pray for longer sustainance As we fight to maintain our faith I hope for justice for the ones with nobody to offer it I listen to sad music as I write this speech At this point there is no where left to hide This spiritual split grows by the day With nothing left to hang on We sail this uncertain waters with all but love in our hearts We sing sweet lullaby to the young hoping to keep the memories alive Everyday we grow in life knowing you still watching Even in this times of dark We maintain our sacrifice

Words of praise go to the late At a state of paranoia seeing evil at the corner He preaches the good word to the bad believers He sees his own work put to test As the loneliness drives him to madness All he hears are there mocking words But fuck it am not here to judge The demands of the world stand heavy on his back One man's mission is taking more than was to be given In the beginning they loved you Followed all you claimed Until they created, and the lust of power drove them away Now their word is all we get Now I leave for new horizons I have been here for far too long I just got to take the road to nowhere See the world, or what is left of it I write to let you know am bringing it home to you All that is left of the dream that left Now and forever

And as she came Light were her things Simple were her ways Her motto was to never die As she came Love was all she claimed I drank her water Trying to quench this undying thrist Ooh as she came Pain was all she left behind Sad music and sad poetry The death of all that was true And when she cames I promised to shield her Protect her from all that we lost I promised to live our lie again As she left Five in the morning, in the cold rain In claims of I don't need you no more Her and her Lightskin things

Obsessed with the oldern ways Wishing I could write you just for the thrill of the wait I teach myself lessons everyday Just getting an inch further from the darkness I pray for sanity and Calmer days Days not filled with loneliness And memories of you leaving with my T-shirt on Twelve hours next to one of my best memories Let's make a tost to all the stupid things I do I always thought she would get used to it This intense, unstable math question Walking out with that fake smile Feeling lost and forgotten Am mixing too much emotion with this William Lawson's Feeling at a loss of words Effects of loss of inspiration, I think Lay them all on me, the problems of the true and free She calls me at twelve,dominant queen with an acquire d taste In a po sition of restraint she ask , do you rea lly want to love som ebody ?

Our first superman Grown in knowledge and strength Leader by nature Mentor to all Sixteen years of the right ways Living in his guidance Peaceful are his ways Noble is his mission A modern day philosopher Words that just take you away Sometimes I feel lost from the path he taught I write to live up to the belief he had when none saw it Teacher to the believers Father to the abandoned I try to find my way back Sending messages to the inner me Remember the words that have brought you this far Bring home the man he molded I write to remember a hero And a guardian to most

I have lived life to my finest Enjoyed as much of it as I could I remember the beautiful memories Moments of pure love and joy Days spent in the east Lost but found in each other That was when we lived I woke up to a beautiful face today Reminded me of how much we lost Days of no care and free spirited living Doing Jamaican things under the sheets Now we are all grown up Choice is not a choice no more Beautiful deception,beautiful redemption ''Levis you need to move on'' Those are the last words she said It would have gone even worse but oh well Time to set my mind free Look up to the most high for the peace Just be me for as long as I can For this is everything I know

They all say when you love someone you should let them go But they forgot to mention the deep dark hole of loneliness that engulfs you Feeling lost and confused Abandoned on this world meant for two I try and fix this self inflicted wounds But thrice Is just one too many times It's a lonely road that I now walk alone Mending my breaking heart Wishing for a faster Recovery I sometimes wished I could see what was on your mind Maybe this outcome would have been of better design I always thought we would fly together,laying in bed counting the stars More from you was not enough for a falling man Turn to my left hoping for you but your scent is all I get Mending my breaking heart Wishing for a faster recovery My hands shake as I write my pain It has never been a call for help and never will I should have been there for you like I was supposed to And now I put on a fake smile,escaping suicidal thoughts The thought of another makes me feel like losing my mind I hope y...

Its been like two weeks I don't know why I never get through to you When I meet you I felt something change in me Body so perfect gave me that handy Virus I don't why you don't understand how I feel about you You always leaving me in this black sandy beaches Half a bag of good decisions as my speakers shout bad influence Another tender soul taken by youth and love I try to keep mine from the devil but I haven't felt for the last three years I roll and lie to me Lost in this black sandy beaches Please don't lie to me,I do enough of that by myself You are such a distraction An undisputed dimension Golden heart and cold soul So i will do my own hoping not to return to this states Swallow my pain and drink my shame .......lEvon

She called and promised to come I compose myself getting my stuff together Call my dealer and have something for the night She always claims I was never her type She parents never wanted it to happen Touched by an angel Feelings true to believe She knocks at my door Standing with her cute geek face Smiling to one who tattooed her name on his heart Her Majesty Cinderella For forever is all I can ask Touched by angel Feelings true to believe She has a way of getting to the sky before me She always tells me it's not a sign of weakness She makes those eyes when she wants to feel me When the glasses go off I know its about to be the real thing Touched by an angel Feelings true to believe Lost in each other,love,love I feel close enough to touch her soul Tighter she holds, closer I get Her skin smells like cinnamon She kisses asking for more Never understand what we have But I would never want more ......LVN

Looking perfect in your tiny black dress Your left hand giving colour to the world The cute smiley face tattoo gazing from your thigh You have been my vision for life I tell you never to worry coz we will be fine I smile every time you look at me with your puppy eyes They shine to light a spark in the dark I know I have been a dick for a while I know I said it was the kush and the booze,but I lied I sometimes forget how am nothing without you Like the first time you took my hand I fell in love all over again This tortured soul of mine Still don't see what you see Tonight I show you off My one true gain The only one I will ever need Coz wanting you would have never been enough My one true company Young girl in a black silk dress Looking nice tonight ......LEVON

it hasn't been long but I feel like they all forgot you when I feel happy i remember your smile it stayed even in the toughest times my childhood lives on with your memory seated next to you,listening an angel gone too soon you saw that they all didn't judged by existence never again gave me another name to be a part of them you loved me for what I could be I miss you I can't lie been thinking of getting your name as a tattoo an angel gone too soon I tear up as I write not cried in a while though my hands shake as I think what could have been seated with the younger ones,sharing being a greater grandma our angel gone too soon ...Levon

at this stage the drugs have taken over chroming and covering all that I have been feeding I don't know if I trust you this much but here goes nothing listen listen to the whispers of the dead the laughter of the caged the effort to the denied now look what you have started sentimental thoughts of none yes she did not once nor twice 360 view of the evils does that to you it becomes less living and more learning how to live I fly everyday to a world of people a place being happy doesn't come with a cost now look what you have started sentimental thoughts of one name your price my dear it seems tears are the only things left money can't buy mirror mirror on the wall what will you show me my cursed reality or my thought life cell mate with my dreams friends with my enemies .......young lord

spin spin spin my world goes round n round I dance my night away as this sexy beast fights for my rights am just trying to fuck living everyday as the gift it is taking pills and potions just keeping my soul in a drug induced coma fine green and purple rain doing kush up's to keep my mind alive it ain't a tune till snoop dogs' it up my weed man be feeling the pressure we just smoked a bush with the prince we just too young to mind the eye glance like a complete story we all had a beginning mine was in route 420 that dark life young and in a coma young and turned up I know exactly what I need a bag of money and a girl like Maurine am too young to anticipate the future I checked it out and am leaving right I put myself deeper into my dream my drug enduced coma ........LVN

Dear Brenda............ wake up call to that fine heart I know it has been a while I have missed you more than words can say I hold your memories in the cold nights I feel your love when all hope is lost the thought of you keeps me strong it has been days since the last attack my heart still sorrows over the loss of my friends i pictured you smiling when it seemed like the end the horrors of the war have taken a toll on me i have seen death in the claim of land blood and death bring no fear to my soul now i feel myself losing my humanity i hold to this fading memory of your perfect smile as the devil knocks and calls me to the beyond i pray i survive this human despair to rejoin my one true love but if the heavens call upon me live, love and prospered raise our young in the way we learned teach them the truth and love them as we would be happy and live for my love will never die . ........ LvN

I once had but never to  get again the rising fire you made killed by a young soul we could have had it all seen and told it all meeting you I loved opened doors to lost roads deeper and deeper i fell I feared for the unknown I craved understand needed it like religion I wanted more than you could give i tried to make you more than you could be i.....i ruined the best i ever had i ruined us now i sit at the corner watching my nightmare unfold watching HIM make you smile see him hold you tight see the one i loved in the hold of another i need the pain it's the only means to learn the way i lay here not knowing what to say i have wasted too much time wishing you back let me glance one more time to the door maybe my last view will be you .........LEVON

its friday night again another chance to live the night life friends bang at my door reminding me we got twenty minutes more jump into my party mood ready to be one with the crew bright lights shine on the dark road tall lights shine the dark night as the blunt goes round and round freeing the spirit that comes out to roar jump out of the mobile in the rush to be immobile she passes and smiles handing me the white cup scent that brings delight as i gulp the first of the night burning sensation drifts down my throat as my mind blows out in smoke music screaming in my ear happy feelings riding near bodies crashing,screaming,and loving like a pool of cat fish feeling for life as the amount changes in my white cup reality journeys to fantasy I gasp for a breath of air suffocating in the mass of body trying to survive the uncertain end I walk around just to get my mind straight as the cool night breeze brings me to my sta...

Most tell me count my blessings some tell me it only happens once in life its true well to me it was every time i kissed you it felt like the first seeing you felt more eternal but look at us now as we stand at the end of our thread One too many times. One too many times i waited up. For you and your lover, Silk sheets, studded rubber, you showed up. Why yes you did, late, stinking of drunken passion, kissed the pain away; I stayed. i saw what i was becoming i wanted to change i tried to change but the life just held me back the demons slowly feed on my feeble soul as our love faded away in the dark lost i became everyday as my grip loosen every single moment It takes two to tango, but i guess my two left feet weren't good enough, my right and left cheeks, weren't feel enough, my paradise lost in disguise. And ass the darkness embraced you, your heart turned cold as ice. The once future promised, bright politely engulfed i...

my life has been a journey crossing this fields of death and valleys of hopelessness wishing I had seen the light on a much brighter day waking up everyday trying to escape what I became emptiness fills the shell no love can penetrate constantly lost in my own mind it's like a maze created by my own kind thinking I have come to the end only to start again the journey to the end creeping back into myself ready to take control of the helm ............LEVON

hall music,mad mixing feeling so high yet so close to the ground skin grind on skin there is so much body in here clothes are getting extinct I feel her move her all on me I grip hard,ready to enjoy the night as the night grows old passion and lust bust in violent amp as they all came yet be as they all left just another night in the city as we drown in our own sins pleading with the all mighty just for moments of hope as we hold on to our liquor that feeling of never being here hanging on to a one night stand hoping it will turn to something better tired of loving you and your friends only the city will understand life and night of the city ....................LEVON

she asks why I want her why I won't take no for an answer and i say you are all i want all I would ever need better than any i ever had your smile makes everyday worth living I want to sleep and awaken next to you I want to take my last glimpse of this life by your side being with you till the gods call upon us why do I want you is it for your amazing soul is it how you can make everyday feel like a blessing the way you make me feel wanted you who is everything I can say and all I can't say I want you for you I need you for you and I need no other all I need is you ..........LEVON

intoxicated love hopeless wishes of a love life craving the attention of an angel but demons be attracted to my antenna what do you say hun? do you feel crazy enough to try and make this work? please dealer fold back the river you making me too emotional your work be the finest but can you get me something better please take me back to the start when this feeling was a creepy sensation you and gravity got alot in common you both got a way to keep me on ground let me sing you a love song until you hate my love ...........LEVON

life is a trial failing,winning,failing i had decided to try you like a clothe you were a size too small am tired of being the best example of this failing fox show i have sang songs of hope raised you words of trust faught demons of lust just to be alive with you see another day with you dealing with you Ha!harder than math i loved you but when i found you i lost love ......... . LEVON

waking up in my smokey apartment smell of weed and booze fill up the air naked angel right next to me only God knows the sins of the last night staring at my tattooed hand wondering if I did the right thing falling in love with myself only to fight the hate from within hoping that this is the last puff of this puff puff pass system As the angel awakes questions linger in my mind what is her name? how did we meet? is this what my life is turning out to be wishing i had picked the call when Christ called me just to ease my burdens on him lighting another split wishing I could escape this unforseen mist         LEVON

My beautiful stranger it has been a while I know I do not deserve even a minute But it falls just too heavy on my heart I have tried to move on But my heart you still hold Your heart you claim I hold But I hold a jar of bruises Sealed by a new found love Still growing but memories so heavy Till I lay my weary bones to forget Don't let what once was never be I held you tight in my arms Loved you through all the storms We had become one for life Give a spark to this dying life I have no fire to donate a spark Maker give power to open inside Read out the war that never began To eyes that speak of regret For mine to burn with fire give the spark A woman so beautiful I left a shell I drained all belief of love Come back to me come to me I will love with scars Lets have what we once had the shell found new diamond but no shine drained beauty by pain demanding feeling time forsook me due to wounds you left butterflies we were meant to fly not die but...

Beats of love sounds of happiness tunes of sweetness sweet sounds to my soul words of hope sing in my ear i feel nothing when your not here emptiness fills the space you held i hate myself for never giving you the time losing you was losing the music the sweet sounds to my soul your voice haunts my dreams i see you in every corner i take i cry myself to sleep every night waiting at your door for even a fading sign hating myself for losing you, the only thing that mattered you, the sweet sound to my soul           LEVON

My Island love Straight from the east african coast lighter than the gods heavenly blessed from all angles you make taken ones wish for freedom just to explore you for a night young east african girl my island love My east african girl raised in the peaceful islands to come create wars in the city with such humble beginnings a destructive end was never expected my island love My island love as you lie dead at the corner of my bed as your blood flows on both us always know I loved you even after losing you to the world we are now united in death         LEVON

21 years of my life lived lost in an unforgiving plane with a group of wolves dressed in bloody sheep lived in hope of a better tomorrow I never meant to be me I want to start over a new reborn in the light of the few to lead by example in this mass of confusion ready to let go of my past they will never see the new me fuck that, they will never accept the new me my past will live to blind their simple mind this is a message to the new in life live it like it's your second time ➿➿➿➿➿ Am I happy now? Two years down the line still seated on the same wooden bench Looking at the same neighbor's fence With less than I had and more of nothing Forgotten by all who loved you, lost by the one meant for you Days spent in a haze ,weighing all that was worthwhile, Drugs and play numbing the pain as reality bellows , Been at the edge too many times, don't think I can make it back again It's not all bad though, in the few months that it lasted I found faith In her...

of a distant time when i meet you a lost soul in this world of uncertainty meet in the dark Streets on loniness its funny how we connected you knew me before i told you me of a distant time when we meet just like a blessing you kept on showering most thought we were playing around but a bond stronger than most held this drifting souls together of a distant time when I lost you nights of laughter turned into cold shells now I feel so alone,losing it all walking down the streets hoping you will be the one tapping my back when i look .......LEVON

talk about a last minute reaction when even the last of the hopeful are no more when all that you hold dear washes away do I have anymore to hang on to i will tell my story like it was the last of a soul lost in a world of ash dreading all logics to hold onto a fading glance my time here is nearly done I have run a race that none is meant to win place my shell in the pits of the forgotten ends let me gain sight of a piece once loved let me hang on to the last of my dreams for they are the only thing they can't take away from me Drifting in this ocean of deception, crashing into their waves of lie Take your eyes off of me for I don't have the answers  I gave in a long time ago, all I do now is sit and await the end  Some call it madness for my desire of death  But don't we live to die?  Am sorry I broke all my promises, life just didn't turn out as we dreamed  I still find it insane how much it hurts just thinking about you  Sometimes I ...

could this be love could this be lust my dark skin queen created to prove Gods greatness I could wish you all mine dream you by my side walk with you all white create life,black and white love you till the end of days my dark skin queen my Akelo am I trying too hard too perfect to find the right words got me up all night thinking what would and what could wrote and wrote deleted and wrote again pushed myself to the edge of no return then I remembered our first not perfect but will always last it gives me hope that one day I will have my queen 👑 my Akelo LEVON

Mid night meetings with my mid night princess know you so well I could write a book about you love you so much I could take a life for you but you destroyed our love and killed us at no speed a love so young and tender Darked by lust and expectance wishing I could have you back in my arms but the city has taken over you on our last night in Nairobi As the road decreases in structure it settles in that I have totally lost you the girl I always knew and love who lived right next door now a shadow in the cities dark pits voices I  my head scream for explanation but all I can give is excuses as I see my dreams drive away it settles in  that I have totally lost you on our last night in Nairobi     LEVON

Beautiful african queen, a treasure that holds much that is yet to be see A pure force of nature ,a power to recon with Warrior to the african child,her ground she stand to her last Defender of the african heritage,mother to the teachings of the land We hold you dear to our heart, the love we never asked for Through all her hardships and tribulations she stode strong  We woke up to breakfast on the table everyday, forgetting gratitude for her love You were hope on a cloudy day, a shoulder to cry on when the world was on my neck  You saw the possibilities of our future and placed your bet on us We celebrate you African mother for who you are, one that we can never replace  We tell your story for love is all have for you The much you have done, even designing my recovery  The much you have done, most without a word of thanks  We celebrate you today, Teresa Wangechi, Alice Mumbi and all the other super heroes of our lives  For we are because of you...