my kind of hurt

I once had but never to  get again
the rising fire you made
killed by a young soul
we could have had it all
seen and told it all

meeting you I loved
opened doors to lost roads
deeper and deeper i fell
I feared for the unknown

I craved understand
needed it like religion

I wanted more than you could give

i tried to make you more than you could be

i.....i ruined the best i ever had

i ruined us

now i sit at the corner

watching my nightmare unfold

watching HIM make you smile

see him hold you tight

see the one i loved

in the hold of another

i need the pain

it's the only means to learn the way

i lay here not knowing what to say

i have wasted too much time wishing you back

let me glance one more time to the door

maybe my last view will be you

.........LEVON