story of an african son

Dear Brenda............ wake up call to that fine heart I know it has been a while I have missed you more than words can say I hold your memories in the cold nights I feel your love when all hope is lost the thought of you keeps me strong it has been days since the last attack my heart still sorrows over the loss of my friends i pictured you smiling when it seemed like the end the horrors of the war have taken a toll on me i have seen death in the claim of land blood and death bring no fear to my soul now i feel myself losing my humanity i hold to this fading memory of your perfect smile as the devil knocks and calls me to the beyond i pray i survive this human despair to rejoin my one true love but if the heavens call upon me live, love and prospered raise our young in the way we learned teach them the truth and love them as we would be happy and live for my love will never die . ........ LvN

I once had but never to  get again the rising fire you made killed by a young soul we could have had it all seen and told it all meeting you I loved opened doors to lost roads deeper and deeper i fell I feared for the unknown I craved understand needed it like religion I wanted more than you could give i tried to make you more than you could be i.....i ruined the best i ever had i ruined us now i sit at the corner watching my nightmare unfold watching HIM make you smile see him hold you tight see the one i loved in the hold of another i need the pain it's the only means to learn the way i lay here not knowing what to say i have wasted too much time wishing you back let me glance one more time to the door maybe my last view will be you .........LEVON

its friday night again another chance to live the night life friends bang at my door reminding me we got twenty minutes more jump into my party mood ready to be one with the crew bright lights shine on the dark road tall lights shine the dark night as the blunt goes round and round freeing the spirit that comes out to roar jump out of the mobile in the rush to be immobile she passes and smiles handing me the white cup scent that brings delight as i gulp the first of the night burning sensation drifts down my throat as my mind blows out in smoke music screaming in my ear happy feelings riding near bodies crashing,screaming,and loving like a pool of cat fish feeling for life as the amount changes in my white cup reality journeys to fantasy I gasp for a breath of air suffocating in the mass of body trying to survive the uncertain end I walk around just to get my mind straight as the cool night breeze brings me to my sta...