story of an african son

You left in claim of love Left us lonely and alone with our thoughts Set us apart from the few Drained all that we held true Bloodstreams run empty for weeks As the hope drained We stare at the screen hoping your name may pop up soon Standing infront of your door hoping you might sense my determination We see ourselves and wonder what it might have been We wish we could call you and talk of our problems but it's really hard when you are the main one We ease our minds with laughs and hard drugs Pretending it never hurts with tears drowning our eyes We might never wake up from this beautiful confusing But as long as we remain us, we will always be free

Hold my hand as we dance the dance of life Come closer for the distance makes my lungs wish to give out We are closer now than we ever were It takes more than guts not to text you back I loved and hated who you were The way you could reflect all that detailed me while you remained my mystery I tried to push this problem out my mind by letting go Finally deciding to be myself at a loss of you Guess it's true I will never be good for anyone Die as she walks praying she would stay I don't need to label us to know what i feel You are the only left of my shining lights 7:01 and my mind is an ocean of beautiful confusing I can never say you walked away and I can never apologize enough for it I try to start up a new life set Hoping to be a better bet I recap the litter I never forgot Stories that we made in the days under the shade This story might be over but we can always start over

I see you hurt as he says no to you I hate how much I can do nothing about it I would never ask you for the shame wouldn't bare When your not there i sing the songs we loved together I sit on the bench of life watching as it takes its toll God only knows how it hurts to be powerless to your hurts I wish it was as easy as I made it sound Keep it under lock and key, safe from the ones who would hurt you I turn wishing my stars would aline,letting me be your hero just this once I know it might take forever With nights of terror and days of unforgiving storms It might not be tomorrow but soon in the future, we will share our story I wish you could finally move on Start seeing the beauty and perfection that he will never see Remember to love yourself as I always will I hope when you awake you will be free of all that holds you to guilt I hope you will remember when you loved you